To recap the tale so far, I, being a homeless, untreated schizophrenic living on the street at the time, was set upon without provocation by Constable Shithead in Langley, B.C. late one night after I exited a bar at closing time. The ever charming Constable Shithead laid a beating on me at the side of the street, loaded me into his cruiser, and carted my sorry ass about 15 kms out of town where he hauled me out of the cruiser and abandoned me at the side of the road with the instruction to not return too Langley. Outraged and full of righteousness, and with a sizeable chip on my shoulder, I made my way on foot back to the city to seek retribution for my mistreatment. Arriving at the police station, I was turned away by an officer manning the front desk with the flimsy excuse that he could not formally lodge a complaint against Constable Shithead because he lacked a supply of forms upon which to take my statement. Fully convinced that I was being deflected by the officer in an effort to protect Constable Shithead, I got quite pissy with the officer. Having kicked the beehive so to speak, I left in a fit of impotent rage to go and sleep the night away and fight the battle another day, unaware that the police, like a swarm of angry bees, had plans of their own. The opening of this, the seventh part in the series, sees me confronted by two people in front of a strip plaza just outside the city center three or four days after my attendance at the police station.
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September 22, 2014
August 20, 2014
August 9, 2014
July 24, 2014
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June 29, 2014
Medicated For Your Protection
In my post, “Coping With Hearing Voices,” I mentioned that one of my coping strategies was the use of prescription drugs. In this post I am going to discuss in more detail my use of prescription drugs to treat schizophrenia and some of my thoughts around the use of drugs to treat this supposed disease, briefly discuss the medications I take, and finishing off by noting a couple of the side effects of taking the medication.
As it was explained to me some time after my diagnosis of schizophrenia and the beginning of medical treatment for that disease, in the simplest sense, my condition was brought on by a chemical imbalance in my brain. The use of anti-psychotics then was meant to correct that chemical imbalance. This view takes almost no interest in what has happened to you in life and focuses solely on treating the disease. The prognosis indicated that my affliction would last a lifetime and therefore the use of medication would necessarily last a lifetime as well. Without medication I would be unable to function and further, I could be construed a danger to myself or others. So sayeth the medical model. Halleluiah. Amen.
June 14, 2014
Don’t Kid yourself. There Is Always Another Voice Telling Me What To Do.
My analytics on the blog indicate that the most popular of my posts to date is the Die!Die!Die! post in which I discussed the die command, a pernicious voice in my head that persistently and over the years periodically commands me to die. As the discussion of the experience of being in the head of someone who hears voices seems to be a popular one, I would like to return to it and discuss further the experience of voice commands in an effort to give my readership more of what they seem to find interesting.
March 15, 2014
Coping With Hearing Voices Part 3 of 3
In this third and final part of a three part series of posts on strategies for coping with hearing voices I share a final four strategies that I employ to keep functioning at a high level.
7. Keeping occupied. While I am a strong proponent of having down time to think and reflect or pursue pleasing hobbies, I am a firm believer that a person needs meaningful occupation to be well balanced. I know I do. Consequently, I have chosen to remain employed instead of going on disability when it was offered and having nothing purposeful to apply myself too. It is my belief that without something purposeful to apply oneself to on a regular basis one goes into decline and the condition that caused the disability worsens. This has been true for me. And for me, much of my sense of self-worth comes from the fact that I work full time and am financially independent, especially of the state. My experience has taught me that I do better with my condition when I am working than when I am unemployed and left with nothing but time on my hands. While I do believe that there are times when it is necessary to take a step back from employment when one is in crisis because of a condition, it is essential to return to steady employment, or, as an alternative, possibly volunteer work, on a full time basis as soon as possible. In my last episode 2.5 years ago I was back to work in 6 weeks after persuading my doctor(a general practitioner) that I was ready even though she prescribed at least a four month recovery period. The mind that is occupied with a worthy undertaking has no time to occupy itself with lesser things, particularly the unending chatter of idle voices in my head.
