A Life Interrupted Nothing Is As It Appears

June 15, 2015

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 7

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To recap the tale so far, I, being a homeless, untreated schizophrenic living on the street at the time, was set upon without provocation by Constable Shithead in Langley, B.C. late one night after I exited a bar at closing time.  The ever charming Constable Shithead laid a beating on me at the side of the street, loaded me into his cruiser, and carted my sorry ass about 15 kms out of town where he hauled me out of the cruiser and abandoned me at the side of the road with the instruction to not return too Langley. Outraged and full of righteousness, and with a sizeable chip on my shoulder, I made my way on foot back to the city to seek retribution for my mistreatment. Arriving at the police station, I was turned away by an officer manning the front desk with the flimsy excuse that he could not formally lodge a complaint against Constable Shithead because he lacked a supply of forms upon which to take my statement.  Fully convinced that I was being deflected by the officer in an effort to protect Constable Shithead, I got quite pissy with the officer. Having kicked the beehive so to speak, I left in a fit of impotent rage to go and sleep the night away and fight the battle another day, unaware that the police, like a swarm of angry bees, had plans of their own.  The opening of this, the seventh part in the series, sees me confronted by two people in front of a strip plaza just outside the city center three or four days after my attendance at the police station.
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May 21, 2015

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 6

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Hello folks.  I’m back. I must apologize profusely for the abject neglect of my blog these last six or seven months and ask your forgiveness. As events were, I experienced a schizophrenic episode and was temporarily disabled. My doctor instructed me to cease my usual endeavors and prescribed a period of rest and relaxation until I recovered.  I have just now begun picking up again my usual commitments and obligations and have only recently returned to work. Going forward, my attention to my blog will again be more regular. read more

September 22, 2014

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 5

I arrived at the Langley Police Department approximately five hours after being unceremoniously dumped at the side of the road in the middle of nowhere in the darkness of early morning tired, hungry, sober, and a little foot sore, though nonetheless determined and indignant.  The sun had only recently risen. I arrived at the detachment on the wings of the belief that the actions of a rogue constable would not be found acceptable to the powers that be in the Langley police department.  Someone needed to take Constable Shithead down a peg or two and I was just the man to do it. I deserved the respect. read more

August 20, 2014

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 4

After a five minute pow-wow the two officers split up. The second officer went back to his cruiser, pulled away from the curb and disappeared into the night.  Constable Shithead entered into the driver’s seat of our cruiser and started the engine.

“What’s happening?” I asked anxiously through the plexi-glass divider on the back of his seat that stood between us.

“Shut up!” he barked with what I had come to recognize as his usual charm. He accelerated the cruiser away from the curb and drove off down the road heading to the outskirts of town with the dash cluster casting a dim blue light upon his visage the side of which I could see over his right shoulder. read more

August 9, 2014

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 3

Seeing that I was no longer any risk of resisting the policeman stood up.  Towering over me, he reached with his right hand across his upper torso to the mic of his radio located on his left shoulder and called for back-up, not that I was in a position too pose any threat. Pulling a set of cuffs from his belt, the policeman knelt down, rolled me over on my stomach, and cuffed my hands behind my back. He then angrily told me to get up lifting me by my bound hands at the same time. He walked me over to the cruiser, opened the back door, and roughly shoved me inside. I had caught my breath and, not daunted by my wounded pride and rough treatment, anger burned in my gut. read more

July 24, 2014

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 2

Outside in the fresh air it was a cold, dark and uninviting December early morning. I took a deep breath, exhaled, and wished for a smoke of which I had none. A pleasant, mild burning sensation from the beer warmed my guts. To my left a street light cut a conical form of light in the darkness emanating from the bulb at the top of the pole. A row of similar light forms stood as sentinels against the darkness down the road behind it off into the distance.  Same thing in the opposite direction. The streets were empty. Not a soul could be seen. There was an eerie silence. I rolled up the collar on my jacket against the cold and started off at a leisurely pace to the right in the direction of the city center.  Having been in the city for over a week I knew that along the way I would run into a derelict 18 wheeler truck cab abandoned in a small field where, being homeless, I planned to spend the night protected from the elements. It had a bolster and would keep me dry if it rained as it often did in Langley, a veritable five star Hilton to me compared to the places I had become accustomed to sleeping in and the concrete floors I had known. read more

July 13, 2014

Langley, B.C.: Policemen Aren’t Your Friends Part 1

Dots of light flew in the dim light before my eyes from the rotating disco ball in the ceiling above the dance floor and danced across the dirty walls and the worn floor. I could just sense the bass of the music pounding in my chest as AC/DC’s song Highway To Hell raged out of the sound system, the only new equipment in the place, as it stood out in relief against a backdrop of the outworn and outmoded accoutrement of the rest of the bar. Around the edge of the dance floor gut high, scarred, and dented wooden tables with patches of the finish worn off the tops punctuated the otherwise empty room. The stools around the tables stood largely empty and expectant awaiting the patrons that would not come. There might have been six people in attendance besides the staff in an establishment that could easily hold a hundred. The place smelled of cigarette smoke and stale beer. The walls were covered in pictures of rock superstars of a bygone era.  The bar appeared long in decline and held a worn look of a place well past its heyday. In my youth I would have called the place a dive.  Today I just called it a place to get cheap beer. read more

June 29, 2014

Medicated For Your Protection

In my post, “Coping With Hearing Voices,” I mentioned that one of my coping strategies was the use of prescription drugs.  In this post I am going to discuss in more detail my use of prescription drugs to treat schizophrenia and some of my thoughts around the use of drugs to treat this supposed disease, briefly discuss the medications I take, and finishing off by noting a  couple of the side effects of taking the medication.

As it was explained to me some time after my diagnosis of schizophrenia and the beginning of medical treatment for that disease, in the simplest sense, my condition was brought on by a chemical imbalance in my brain. The use of anti-psychotics then was meant to correct that chemical imbalance. This view takes almost no interest in what has happened to you in life and focuses solely on treating the disease. The prognosis indicated that my affliction would last a lifetime and therefore the use of medication would necessarily last a lifetime as well. Without medication I would be unable to function and further, I could be construed a danger to myself or others. So sayeth the medical model. Halleluiah. Amen. read more

June 14, 2014

Don’t Kid yourself. There Is Always Another Voice Telling Me What To Do.

My analytics on the blog indicate that the most popular of my posts to date is the Die!Die!Die! post in which I discussed the die command, a pernicious voice in my head that persistently and over the years periodically commands me to die. As the discussion of the experience of being in the head of someone who hears voices seems to be a popular one, I would like to return to it and discuss further the experience of voice commands in an effort to give my readership more of what they seem to find interesting. read more

March 15, 2014

Coping With Hearing Voices Part 3 of 3

In this third and final part of a three part series of posts on strategies for coping with hearing voices  I share a final four strategies that I employ to keep functioning at a high level.
7. Keeping occupied.  While I am a strong proponent of having down time to think and reflect or pursue pleasing hobbies, I am a firm believer that a person needs meaningful occupation to be well balanced. I know I do. Consequently, I have chosen to remain employed instead of going on disability when it was offered and having nothing purposeful to apply myself too. It is my belief that without something purposeful to apply oneself to on a regular basis one goes into decline and the condition that caused the disability worsens. This has been true for me. And for me, much of my sense of self-worth comes from the fact that I work full time and am financially independent, especially of the state. My experience has taught me that I do better with my condition when I am working than when I am unemployed and left with nothing but time on my hands. While I do believe that there are times when it is necessary to take a step back from employment when one is in crisis because of a condition, it is essential to return to steady employment, or, as an alternative, possibly volunteer work, on a full time basis as soon as possible. In my last episode 2.5 years ago I was back to work in 6 weeks after persuading my doctor(a general practitioner) that I was ready even though she prescribed at least a four month recovery period. The mind that is occupied with a worthy undertaking has no time to occupy itself with lesser things, particularly the unending chatter of idle voices in my head. read more

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